So the last time i wrote this i was goin on about breakin up with my "girlfriend". We were discussing wherather there was a possibillity of there being an us, what with me soon to be heading to aberdeen for 7 years. I wasnt wanting the hassle of anythign serious so i was kinda free when i was up there, but i couldnt just leave it as friends from where we had come from. I decided we should be friends with bonus's but a week later and we were oficially going out. That was over a month ago and we were beginning to get into a routen of meetin before work + having a cheeky kiss where possible. People were also told, so we werent always having to hide away and friends were happy about us spendign as much time together as possible. Everything was perfect and i was happy.
It was my 18th a few days ago and i was woken up at 8am to open pressies then i headed out for lunch with my parents and sister which was all very sweet and civilised. Then we headed home and i had a nap before having some birthday cake than left for work. Work built up to a flurry of exitement as me + some collegues left to party til the wee small hours.
We went to a bar in town first which is chavvie but plays amazing music. It was totally dead, apart from 2 girls at the end of the bar that were pissed already and so when we walked in they latched on to us and started buying rounds of jaegerbombs! The barman was amazing too, so lots of banter was had. I ended having pleanty heart to hearts witht those that where there too so it was a spectacular night!
We then sang our way to CC's at the other end of princess street but girlfriend picked up a guy before we had even waked into he place and so i wasnt at all happy. I went in, danced like a loony and then freeked out at my gf for kissing a random. I was so angry and hurt that she hadnt thought of me when she was drunk, but she didnt understand how she had hurt me. In the end everyone was gettin involved and even strangers were helping! I do love the friendliness drinking gives you! You could tell a total stranger your life story and they would enjoy it! After a long discussion we were no further forward and i left for a walk with one of my male work collegues. Hes in a tough relationship, so he was a fantastic help. We just walked for an hour, talkin about love and life and trying to solve the whole incident. Basically it all comes down to trust. If you dont have trust your relationship has nothing. I dont trust my girlfriend and dont think i ever have, but im going to stay with her and see what happens between us. I never thought we would get past christmas but i hope we can still have fun until then.
