I have just been broken up with by my first ever partner, which was the most unlikely thing to have ever happened to me this summer so far! I can now strike many things of my list of "things to do befor i die". To begin, i think i found a friend for life in my new work which is a less-glamerous bargin store. We were clearing up everything at the end of the day, talking about everything that had ever happened to us. We managed to fit so much into that hour or so and it was just magical. After 2 days we had aded each other on bebo and had many hours of chat on msn, aswell as getting caught by managers chatting when where we shouldnt have been while at work. By the thursday we were arranging to meet on the fri. When friday arrived we chatted for hours and looked at each other and touched and flirted i guess, under the guise of friendship.

That night i was to meet up with friends but my new friend was meeting up with her friends too. I had already said id go with mine but amy couldnt keep away from me, and i wasnt pushing her away either. Cutting a long and painful story short my friends left and i didnt care enough to go too, but went with with the people i didnt know as well. Within 30 minutes i was drunk on very little, actually, and feeling pretty uncomfortable apart from the one girl who totally got me. When we left to get money from the bank we stopped to talk to lots of strangers, as you do, and we ended up having a peck. As i have previously stated, i have no experience whatsoever, so was taken aback by this and pulled away from her. She also knew i hadn't done much, but back at the club she encouraged me to follow her lead. It was never something i had experienced befor in my lifa and so when it happened in the most unlikely circumstances with the least likely person i was thrilled! We ended up kissing in the club for all to see but stumbled out to get air and talk. We were coming to terms with it all and eventually found somewhere private, a doorway of an alley, fo get close. We stood for 40 minutes kissing, caressing and giggling until i had to leave. It was the most enthrilling thing i have ever felt!

Tasting someone in your mouth and smelling them near you and feeling being touched where no other has touched you drove me into sensual overdrive and i left confused but exited. The next day we were talking on the phone and she repeatedly appologised over the previous nights events and i though it was a mistake, although i wasn't entirely sure i wanted it all to end. At work it was hard, as i wanted to be close as we had been before and i told her i wanted to kiss her again so we had lingering looks and touches suggesting more until we were allowed to leave early. 10 minutes later we were at on her bed where petting over clothes was taking place and serious snogging, but it wasnt as thrilling as the night before. Even today while serous touching and experssions of lust were shown in work once the others left i felt it wasnt as powerfull as before. Something was missing and i feared it was the alcohol consumed on the "magical" night.

I arrived home and ate and then went on msn to talk as we had discudded. Serious discussions took place over how we felt about each other and as im going to uni i was only looking for fun wheras my girlfriend was wary that she was falling in love. Not bad i must say, after 1 week of speaking! So we have decided to leave it all as friends, with benefits which is the part that i suggested to see if any drunken nights could bring the magic back. So i have expeienced my first love, kiss and break-up, all within a week.

So now i have reduced my life list in many ways i would not have dreamed as an unexperienced teenage girl. I knew that we were sent to teach each other things that we had never dreamed capable of, and it shows through the most amazing week imaginable.